my_window_seat | (no subject)

Well, that was....a learning experience.

Final tech/dress rehearsal tonight -
and your Illustrious Stage Manager TOTALLY CHOKED.

As in, the director ended up having to run the light board.

...

I've called shows, and a MILLION years ago I ran lights, and more recently ran sound - but I've never tried to do **all three at once** before.

And as of tonight - I still haven't.

And likely won't.

Lou's going to run lights the first three shows and try to get a light board op for the last three. I'm staying on sound where I belong. And hopefully, it will stay that way - although she'd still like to simplify the light cues and have me run the whole thing, lights and sound - since she did both for the one show in New York.

I learned how to say "no" tonight - or rather, learned to say "yes" when someone offers to step in and take something out of my hands that I'm just not capable of handling.

I'm so tired right now that it hasn't entirely sunk in - but I think I'm okay with it.

Not a small realization.

Usually I'd just fall apart entirely and everything would go to shit. This time, I choked, yes - but it's not the end of the world, and there are solutions.

Tired. Pick-up rehearsal at 9:30am tomorrow to make up for the cluster fuck that was tonight.

Okay, so tonight actually was fairly unfucked, all things considered. We got one solid run in.

Ack.

But -

Wow.

Yeah.

Tired.

NOTE: This is a two-channel board with no programmable cues - you can only have one pre-set at a time, so it's necessary to reset between most cues. Which is more challenging than most boards these days, where you just pre-progam all your cues in and hit the Go button every now and then. Not that it's that freakin' hard - I just haven't run lights since Hector was a pup. Ack.