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my_window_seatDear LJ - I liked the nightsky page topper you had before. Please change it back, and then STOP FUCKING WITH SHIT unless it adds some kind of functionality. Dipshits. Sheesh.
So today I went to OFFCenter Community Arts Studio to interview as a volunteer. I have a buttload of hours to get in on my Americorps contract by May 15th, and assisting Anna with her next Theatre in the Community class probably isn't going to do it, so out of the different volunteer opportunities, I thought I'd try to stay with the arts. Solid.
Funny thing - while talking with Claudia, the woman who runs/owns the space, I realized how hard it is for me to step up and take advantage of opportunities when they're being offered to me. I thought I'd probably just do 3 or 4 hours a week there of some kind of menial stuff; cleaning, organizing, helping them figure out some computer stuff and whatnot - and after finding out my interests and background, Claudia was proposing that I do some workshops and/or some teaching there. Real stuff. Stuff that could go on the resume, even. And stuff relevant to who I am and what I'm supposedly supposed to be about.
So how do I react? On the outside, all nods and smiles and tentative plans.
On the inside -
I freeze up. I think, 'why don't I just do some filing and cleaning and simple stuff for you all...'
Part of it's the idea of trying to take on one more thing other than what I've already got on my plate for this semester, which so far includes:
- Tour Manager for the University's Outreach Theatre Company
- Teaching Saturday drama classes for kids again - probably two classes this time instead of just the one
- Props Master for the Theatre Department
- Teaching Assistant/Outreach point person for Anna's class
- Stage Managing for the Theatre in the Making's PlayWrite production of Corpus: An Impractical Anatomy going up in February
- Doing something with the above (TitM) for the upcoming production of The Tempest, which starts rehearsal before the PlayWrite thing closes, meaning some overlap there
- Oh yeah, and a full 18 credit class load. Just for shits and giggles.
It's one of those 'it never rains but what it pours' type deals. The idea of being a part of one more arts organization in a meaningful capacity, while gratifying and pretty much exactly what I need for the ol' resume, seems like it's pushing me the last couple inches toward the edge of the cliff.
Plus, for some reason, it's just scary. Because it involves me being the person to create and conduct, rather than just taking someone else's orders.
Which is again, exactly what I always say I want more than anything.
And again, the thing that also always scares the bejesus out of me.
I am nothing if not conflicted.
On the 'bright' side? The busier I am, the less time my brain has to eat itself. So there's always that.
So today I went to OFFCenter Community Arts Studio to interview as a volunteer. I have a buttload of hours to get in on my Americorps contract by May 15th, and assisting Anna with her next Theatre in the Community class probably isn't going to do it, so out of the different volunteer opportunities, I thought I'd try to stay with the arts. Solid.
Funny thing - while talking with Claudia, the woman who runs/owns the space, I realized how hard it is for me to step up and take advantage of opportunities when they're being offered to me. I thought I'd probably just do 3 or 4 hours a week there of some kind of menial stuff; cleaning, organizing, helping them figure out some computer stuff and whatnot - and after finding out my interests and background, Claudia was proposing that I do some workshops and/or some teaching there. Real stuff. Stuff that could go on the resume, even. And stuff relevant to who I am and what I'm supposedly supposed to be about.
So how do I react? On the outside, all nods and smiles and tentative plans.
On the inside -
I freeze up. I think, 'why don't I just do some filing and cleaning and simple stuff for you all...'
Part of it's the idea of trying to take on one more thing other than what I've already got on my plate for this semester, which so far includes:
- Tour Manager for the University's Outreach Theatre Company
- Teaching Saturday drama classes for kids again - probably two classes this time instead of just the one
- Props Master for the Theatre Department
- Teaching Assistant/Outreach point person for Anna's class
- Stage Managing for the Theatre in the Making's PlayWrite production of Corpus: An Impractical Anatomy going up in February
- Doing something with the above (TitM) for the upcoming production of The Tempest, which starts rehearsal before the PlayWrite thing closes, meaning some overlap there
- Oh yeah, and a full 18 credit class load. Just for shits and giggles.
It's one of those 'it never rains but what it pours' type deals. The idea of being a part of one more arts organization in a meaningful capacity, while gratifying and pretty much exactly what I need for the ol' resume, seems like it's pushing me the last couple inches toward the edge of the cliff.
Plus, for some reason, it's just scary. Because it involves me being the person to create and conduct, rather than just taking someone else's orders.
Which is again, exactly what I always say I want more than anything.
And again, the thing that also always scares the bejesus out of me.
I am nothing if not conflicted.
On the 'bright' side? The busier I am, the less time my brain has to eat itself. So there's always that.
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